The other day I had a moment where I freaked out a little bit- I realized that I will probably never have another newborn. Even though I am completely at peace with my family size, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I will never have that moment in the delivery room where I see my baby for the first time. I will never feel a baby kick inside of me again. I will never have the first day of my babies life back. And I realized that I don't want to forget a moment of this. Sure, I would love for my baby to be born sleeping through the night (wouldn't we all?!?!), but that is also part of the joy of having a newborn. Here is a sampling of what I don't want to forget.
... the moment they laid Everly on my chest
... newborn milky smell
... the feeling when Everly first latched on
... rubbing my hands through all of the fuzzy, brunette hair
... perfectly manicured fingers and toes
... changing her first poopy diaper (what can I say, that is love)
... changing her first poopy diaper (what can I say, that is love)
... smiling while she drifts off to sleep
... grunting in her sleep
... the way her head flops (always to the left side)
... watching Emma smother her with kiss after kiss
... the way she arches her back when I wake her up to feed her
... watching her curl her legs into the froggy position
... snuggling after a feeding session
... watching her eyes roll back in her head as she drifts off to sleep
... Everly's chapped upper lip from nursing
... the first bath
... clenched fists
... watching fingers and toes fill out
... watching her when she startles herself- fingers and toes are out wide!
... the drunk milk look
... how tiny her legs were when she was born
... how much I despise the spitting up stage
... how much I love the first smiles and coo's
... how light weight she feels compared to a toddler
... how much I love breastfed poopy diapers
... how I love to take her picture in every single bow/headband I have purchased
... repeating over and over "hi Everly, I am your mommy"
... the moment they focus their eyes on you and you realize they know you are their mommy
... watching her eyes roll back in her head as she drifts off to sleep
... Everly's chapped upper lip from nursing
... the first bath
... clenched fists
... watching fingers and toes fill out
... watching her when she startles herself- fingers and toes are out wide!
... the drunk milk look
... how tiny her legs were when she was born
... how much I despise the spitting up stage
... how much I love the first smiles and coo's
... how light weight she feels compared to a toddler
... how much I love breastfed poopy diapers
... how I love to take her picture in every single bow/headband I have purchased
... repeating over and over "hi Everly, I am your mommy"
... the moment they focus their eyes on you and you realize they know you are their mommy
There is no better feeling in the world than being these two girls mommy. I am so blessed :).